Day 4

  Today our journal tells us to listen as we pray & record His response to our prayers.

Thoughts:
Q. Is there any healing that you need physically?
     What are the needs in your family right now?

A. Physically..I have a problem with sweating.  I don' t care if I am hot or cold I am sweating.  I also have a floater that I see alot.
     As for my family I want to be closer to everyone.  I want a peace in my home like no one has ever known.

Prayer focus for today:  Intercessors
   I have listed some family members, The President and all ppl. in authority in the Gov.

I spent the last day of my full fast in the kitchen cleaning out every cabnet and the refridgerator.  I did this on purpose.  I wanted to make a bold statment and send a clear message to the devil that I am no longer a pawn of his.  Believe it or not it was easier than yesterday.  I felt very impowered and greatful that the Lord loves me as I am.  I at times thought of all the people that die each day from starvation, mostly children.  I can't imagine having to be a parent and watch your child die of starvation.  It is just so sad.  Part of our fast is to give the money we would spend on our normal groceries and donating it to the food bank at church or a food shelter of some kind.  I thought today while I was drinking my water about the people that don't have clean drinking water & how terrible that is. I am so thankful to be a part of a church that recognizes the needs of hurting people in the US and around the world.  I also thought on Human trafficing some today & how it is going on in the US right under our noses with girls being held in cages in middle class neighbors hoods & sold for $2000.00.  It seems as though no one cares about hurting people or children/teens.  They are crying out, yet no one hears them...maybe it's because no one is listening.  We are to busy with worrying about lusts of the flesh & gadgets that save us our ooo so valuable time(why are people in such a hurry all the time any way, I mean seriously).  Maybe if all those hurting people could shoot some of us a quick text message we'd recognize what's really going on around us.  People are so busy looking down, they can't see around them, even in thier own families.  I am just saying what I am seeing...I am not talking about anyone or have a spacific person or persons in mind.  If you read this and it hits you the wrong way maybe you need to check yourself.  I know I myself am guilty.  I want more than anything to be sensitive to the Lord and what He's showing me.  My desire isn't to hurt or offend, I am simply in the growth process myself and desire to do just that GROW.  As I stated yesterday.  I am not perfect, I am a work in progress.  I desire to change and be who the Lord wants me to be.  As a teen I struggled daily, I never really felt like I knew who I was or wanted to be.  But as my search contenued I found myself in the Lord.  I believe that he can and will use me to my fullest.  I welcome all he has for me and can't wait to see who I am years from now...I know he is working in me and molding me into something great for His glory. (O: