Where I found ME...

  I remember in High School not really feeling like I fit in with any certain crowd.  I was kind of a drifter.  I once had a girlfriend ask me which group I belonged to...she had questioned why I dressed different ways and hung with different crowds.  At the time I didn't really understand why myself, I just didn't feel compelled to be labeled as anything or belong to any certain click.  I tried my best to be true to me, yet I wasn't sure who I was.  This feeling followed me for many years.  Until recently the Lord has shown me who I am in Him and through His word I have discovered myself.  He is showing me that He died for my freedom...freedom from my past hurts, wrongs-mistakes, addictions, bondages, curses, thefts and all the firey darts our enemy, the devil has or will try against me.  He comes as a thief in the night, to try to kill, steal & destroy us in any way he can.  He is sneaky, looking for even the tiniest crevas to enter in and take us down(which for me has mostly been in my mind, it seems to be the easiest target).   He decieves us and we slowly let down our guard and values start deminishing once decieved.  We will do anything to FEEL  happy or forget just for a little while.  In reality thier is one true answer to all our past, current & future regrets/problems...his name is Jesus, he died for us to be free.  We need nothing but Him.  We need to make the Lord the center of our lives.  Christianity isn't about going to church on Sunday.  It is about making Christ the very center of our daily life.  He wants a personal realtaionship with his children, as we do our own children.  He wants us to speak to him about everything and include him in our lives every single day.  He is not someone to just run to in storms, but someone who can meet ANY and ALL needs we have and greatly exceed our expectations far better than any person possibly could.   God is our source for ALL we need.  I have recently learned to quit depending on anyone other than the Lord for anything  missing from my life...love, joy, happiness, confidence, importance...you name the void and the Lord can fill it greater than anyone or thing you have ever desired.  What ever we need all we have to do is ask and he will fill us to overflow capacity.  We must remember we are never alone, when we ask Jesus into our lives we are welcoming him into ourselves.  We are his temple and we find ourselves in and through him.  We must seek the Lord with all our hearts and ask him to be our center.  I don't want to ever go anywhere without my savior or leave him out of any part of the life he has given me.  I have a blessed life, not perfect but blessed...I don't want to spend all my time concentrating on my pain and miss out on blessing someone else for lack of vision.  I want to be open with the Lord and allow him to grow me in my pain so I can help another in pain.  I want to experience all he has for me and share his love with others.


1 John 4:16 And we have known and believed the love that God has in us. God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him.

Exod 34:14 For you shall worship no other god. For Jehovah, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God;

Luke 10: 27 And answering, he said, You shall love

Matthew 6:33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added to you.

Luke 11: 9 And I say to you, Ask and it shall be given you. Seek and you shall find. Knock and it shall be opened to you.

Psa. 26:2 Examine me, O Jehovah, and prove me; purify my heart and my mind.

1 John 3:7 Little children, let no one deceive you. He who does righteousness is righteous, even as that One is righteous

1 John 4:16 And we have known and believed the love that God has in us. God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him


Hosea 4:6 My people are destroyed for lack of knowledgelack le


John 16:13 Howbeit when he, the Spirit of truth, is come, he will guide you into all truth: for he shall not speak of himself; but whatsoever he shall hear, that shall he speak: and he will shew you things to come. 

Eph. 4:23 And be renewed in the spirit of your mind;

John 1:1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

John 16:13 Howbeit when he, the Spirit of truth, is come, he will guide you into all truth: for he shall not speak of himself; but whatsoever he shall hear, that shall he speak: and he will shew you things to come. 

John 14:26 But the Comforter, which is the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you. 

Matthew 4:4  But he answered and said, It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.    Psa 4:3 But know that the LORD hath set apartt him that is godly for himself: the LORD will hear when I call unto him. the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your strength, and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself.

Speaking up and speaking out....

July 16, 2011 the date of my first public speaking event at Cowboy Church of LaFayette.  Those who went to school with me or know me well, know that I am not a great speaker with crowds.  In preperation for this event I found myself feeling a bit out of character. ~ When my mother as me to speak at a ladies meeting I was a bit shocked and felt really unqualified, I was like "What, ME...seriously?  She went on to say she felt the Lord lead her to ask me."  I had been praying that God would use me & I ask her to let me pray about this.  In prayer I knew this was an answer to my prayer & I couldn't say no to God, he even gave me a time frame for my date. He spoke 3 months and 3 weeks which turned out July 16.  I didn't understand at the time that time frame, but as time passed I recieved better understanding.  After this time frame Michael & I would be finished with our first phase in School of Descipleship.  I would also be rebaptized...YES, {RE}. 

{RE}Baptized...
"Why," you might ask?  Well I have been feeling led to do so for about 3 years now.  When I say LED I mean the Lord had put it on/in my heart.  For the past 3 years I have been questioning {WHY} myself.  I knew I was saved, no doubt about it & I was baptized when I was 10 & I knew that, what I did not understand is if I was saved & baptized and I knew it, then WHY get re-baptized...I was perplexed & just couldn't let it go WHY, WHY, WHY and then one day it hit me.  I always try to figure things out when I have a WHY.  I always have to have answers and if I don't I will... lets say get obsessive and anxious for the answers to my WHY's.  I have a hard time letting go until I get answers.  This time God showed me that when I was 10 I really didn't understand what I was doing when I got baptized, I didn't understand the seriousness (not saying the Lord wasn't with me or  I wasn't really baptized, becuase I was..thier was is just more to it than I knew then & God has shown me so much more since)  I did it out of obenience because I knew the Lord had shown me so much & I am such a different person.  In learning obedience,  he was asking me to do this for him & myself so I did.  This time it was so different, for me the meaning was glorious & freeing.  I declaired in front of millions that I choose to live for the Lord.  I went down under the water & took with me every worry, anxiety, stress, generational curse, weakness, exc.. & buried it.  Christ has defeated every thing that will ever or has ever come against me & I came up free from all the worries of the world.  Because He died I LIVE...I am FREE to live my life in, through and for HIM.  He is the center of my life, included in all I do every day, my parter, my friend, my comforter...he knows my hearts desires, he knows everthing about me; the good, bad & ugly..yet he still loves me so much he died so that I can live free.  I believe that is what is meant by America, the land of the free...whom the son sets free is free indeed.

Speaking on the 16th was one of the hardest things my flesh has ever had to do.  I was not nurvious in the least untill we pulled up in the church parking lot.  I had purchased a Tenth Avenue North CD and had listened to it with tears flowing the whole hours trip to my mom's house.  She says, "  That's just how it works girl, the Holy Spirit is all over you" and I just laughed it off, but the truth is he is always with me in all I do I carry him with me, I never want to exclude the one who matters most from anything in my life & I want my kids to do the same.  I hope that if they learn nothing else in the world from me it's that God is always with you, just make him your best friend and fall in love with him...don't worry about anyone or anything else just seek his face and all else will fall into place.

~1 John 4:6  We have known & believed the love that God hath to us, God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God and God in him.

~2 Thes. 3:5  And the Lord direct your hearts into the Love of Godand into the patient waiting for Christ.

~Luke 10:27  Thall shall love the Lord thy God with all thy heart & all thy soul and all thy strength & all thy mind.

~Matt. 6:33  Seek ye 1st the kingdom of God & his rightousness & all these things shall be added unto you.

~Exod. 20:3  Thou shalt have no other God's before me.

~1 John  Beloved let us love one another; for love is of God; and everyone that loves God is born of God and KNOWS God...

I want to know God fully and completely in Luke 11:9 and Matthew 7:7 it is written in red(Jesus words) Ask and it will be given you; SEEK and ye shall find;  knock and it will be opened unto you..I am asking the Lord to show me Him...I want my relationship with him to be more real than any realationship I have ever had.  God is jelous for us {Exod. 34:14 & Deut. 4:24}.  I pray the Lord will examine my heart daily{Psa. 26:2}. I do not make time for the Lord,  He is a part of my daily life and I carry him with me in all I do. I pray the same for you...

What we've been up to this summer ....

              The Kids camping on the porch.

 Our 4th of July Lolli Cakes

 Jasper fireworks

 School room

 flower planting

Frog Hunting

I haven't blogged in a while, so I thought I'd give a little update.  We have been busy enjoying our summer off from school.  So far we have been hiking, river tubbing, camping on the back deck, been cleaning out the house & rearranging furniture, getting new fish for the pond, picking black berries & making pies, learning to make lolli cakes, cooking out, ate lots of ice cream & popcycles,watched fireworks, organized the school room, gone to the fair, said good bye to a lovely woman in our life (Aunt Orene); learned many valuable & life changing lessons from the good Lord, visited the drive inn, hunted frogs & gathered eggs, planted flowers, enjoyed the School of Descipleship, played in waterfalls, taken lots of pictures, climbed trees to save the new kitten, & gone to many yard sales.  We are learing to enjoy the small things in life with each other.  I am thankful for my family & want to leave them a family legacy far richer than anything money could ever possibly buy.

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