As a child we are taught the ways of our parents. We watch everymove they make and usually end up doing the same things they do and act similar, whether we realize it or not. Then we grow up and say we either want to be just like our parents or we want to be the total opposite and some ride the fine line in the middle, trying to pick through the good and bad and decide who we think we want to be or should be according to the worlds view of whats acceptable or not. I am currently in the process of letting go of everything anyone else wanted for me to be, even myself. I mean no disrespect to anyone, but the preasure of being what the world views as acceptable and what everyone in it wants or thinks you should be doing is simply to much for a person to live up to. I have found it much easier to simply seek the Lord and recieve what he has for me and my family. Life is a journey and we all must find our own way to God. Each of us have made decsisions, some wise and some not so wise. Just because we make bad decisions it doesn't mean we don't know God, for that is when we need him in our lives the most. When we surrender all to Him he will lead us through paths of rightouness for his name sake. It is so easy for us to look at situations and assume we know a person because of thier actions, but we don't have the whole picture as the Lord does. We don't really know peoples hearts and intentions like the Lord does. We don't know every little detail about anyone, yet the Lord does. God loves us all reguardless of our mistakes, he knows our hearts intent. He knows why we are the way we are, what makes us tick and why. He is the only one who understands us each individually and uniquely. He see's who we are now and still chooses to see us as who we can be in Him. His desire is for us to look to Him for everything. In good times and in bad. He understands everthing we have ever gone through and knows how to get us through obsticles in life and grow us in Him so that we can be a light for others to see Him. I know that I am not perfect and don't claim to be. I am saved by the grace of God, forgiven, washed and clinsed by the blood that was shed for us all. I can't fathom sometimes how much the Lord has to love us to have given His only son for us so that we can recieve the Love and Grace of God. Most days I feel so free from the world and others I feel attacked like people are imposing thier problems onto me or someone else. Thier is so much conflict in the world.There is no way that anyone, christian or not, that will handle each and every situation the right way in everyones eyes. I say seek the Lord in all your matters and do what he says because you love Him. For me the Lord is daily guiding me through issues that need to be dealt with and as I follow I feel free. As an outsider others might not understand what you say, how you feel or why you do what you do, but I rest in the comfort of knowing the Lord knows me better than anyone and he is looking out for me and growing me in Him. If I mess up I know He understands me and will get me back on track with Him because I love the Lord and know will all my heart he is my best friend and he won't leave my side. I have felt bound by the opinions of othes for a long time. The preasures of life are so pressing at times. So many people are seeking to fill a void in all kinds of places, but I can tell you right now I have saught it in pleasing others or looking outward to things or other people for happiness. I have found freedom in the Lord; His Love & Grace frees us all from all the cares of the world. I am free from the mistakes of my past, no matter who brings it up or decides to talk about it; I am free from my future mistakes; not that I desire to make them, but becasue I am imperfect and will make mistakes while in the world. Each day is a fight with the Spirit and flesh. We are all fighting this fight whether we understand it or not, but I know the one who understands all and His word gurantees Victory to all who overcome this world through Christ Jesus. My comfort daily comes from knowing we all have the same opportunity to recieve true freedom in our life through Jesus. I love the Lord and pray that anyone who doesn't know him will take the time to seek the Lord through reading & studying his word(the Bible), prayer(you can talk to the Lord anytime, anywhere), and fasting(taking time away from your normal dialy life and it's worries and look to the Lord,this can be for a day or weeks; some people choose to fast certain foods, others choose to fast TV or the computer, but you spend that time with the Lord in prayer or studying his word). I am only recommenting that anyone who hasn't saught the Lord with thier whole heart to do so, for this is the only way to true freedom in your life. I know from experience & thier is no freedom like this in the whole world. God is good!
