Day 2

On our 2nd day the journal reminds us to pray & stay in God's Word, rest and conserve energy.  It says the 2nd and 3rd days are most challinging.  I agree.  Today I woke up with a major headache.  So bad my eyes and nose hurt(from a previous break).  I really thought I was going to break at some point today.  Insted I got some support from my best friend in the world, my hubby.  He told me to get out of bed and go straight to the computer to watch todays online video.  I did it and then soaked in a hot bath for a while.  Then let the kids enjoy the snow.  I also had alot of thoughts and read some about spiritual warfare.  I am glad that I know Jesus and am thankful that even though I am not perfect, I still have a place to run to when I have a hard day.  For me a hard day is alot going through my mind...sometimes crazy irational thoughts about my lack in many areas & I tend to place blame on myself and others for it.  I recognize that the devil has really attacked me in my mind in areas of fear...it's a bondage and I am on my way out, thank God!  This will be nipped in the bud...not by my power or might, but my Lord has me right where he wants me & insted of fighting the hands that are holding me, I am now going to embrace them...Let go and let God.  My faith has always been in Him, yet I have struggled to completely turn over certain areas of my life because of the fear of the outcome.  No more, I trust that He will make all things work togther for the good of me because I truely love Him with all my heart.  No one can compare to Him in this world.  He has done far more for me than anyone on earth.  I choose to keep trusting in Him with all my heart, and lean not on my own understanding, knowing he will direct my steps.   My patience has gotten me in trouble in the past, I am deciding that no matter how long it takes Him, He knows better for me than I do and never has the intention of harming me, but growing me. 
  My prayer for tonight is for a fresh encounter with God and to know Him on a higher level.  I pray for strength to get through this fast.  I pray for boldness in Christ.  I want to be different from others for Him and His glory.  I pray for every one on my Spirityal "hit list"  (the Lord knows who they are) & I pray for our Pastor and his family..they need strength, guidance, wisdom, knowledge, understanding sensitivity to the Lord and His will.  I pray the Lord will direct Pastor's footsteps in all he does .  In Jesus name, Amen...