Day 15

   "When you pray....when you fast...when you give(Math 6).  Not if, but when.

   Thoughts: (from the fasting journal) Reflect on how worship & obedience have provided you with the opportunity for God to revfeal Himself & His purposes to you, His special servant.

   Write down the details that were a concern in the begining of the fast that no longer seem of great concern.

   Worship has now become an important part of life for me.  Thier was a point in my life when I didn't really understand why worship was a big deal, until one day I realized that it was a point of contact for our spirits.  When we praise & worship God songs release emotions & you begin feeling His presence and love for you and in return you are able to return to Him love and thanks for all His blessings.  Once you really experience the love of God you desire to please Him and seek Him...to know more about this wonderful being.
   In the begining of this fast I started out strong and was a little over confident....thinking I did this last year so I know this one is in the bag.  Wrong..I did not remember the fast being this hard last year.  It made me question whether or not I'd be able to do the 40 days I had felt led to do.  I just wasn't sure that I could still be that commited.  Then I remembered all the things from the prior fast and how it was sooo worth it.  I saw the Lord work in so many situations.  He has made me so many promises and I know he will keep them all.  Thier is no doubt in my mind that my God will honor my seeking Him.

   Prayer focus:  Revealing Gifts(personal & spiritual)

   To be honest I have no idea what my personal or spiritual gifts are.  I can not possibly imagine what my contribution to His kingdom might be.  I am not saying I am not worthy, but I am saying I am a broken mess.  I know that the Lord is working in me and my family.  I am trusting that He will reveal my gifts in his timming and I want to use them to thier fullest for His kingdom and His glory. (O:

   1 Co. 12

   Today church service helped me to realize that the 40 day fast I felt led to do is without a doubt from God.  It is simply amazing how one can walk into a church service and it seems as if the Lord has prepared the message just for you.  Down to the smallest detail.  Then to have just the right people in your life at just the right times.  He never ceases to amaze me.  I am so thankful to be serving such an awesome God!  Today has been great & for those of you in our small group reading this if you read my previous blogs you know why...it is just amazing how the Lord will speak to you and confirm things that have been on your mind during a fast.  So many of the things that have been preached at Free Chapel I have written about in my blogs.  We also spoke about them in small group tonite.  All I can say is God is great.

   My prayer for the night is that the Lord will contenue working in our lives.  He has done so much for my family and I know He's not finished.  I am so thankful for His direction and His wisdom, knowledge and understanding.  Thier is simply nothing in this world that compares to the Lord.  I pray that the Lord will use me up...to my fullest potential and use me for His kingdoms glory.  I once heard someone say God gives you gifts, but what you do with those gifts is your gift to Him...so true, I want to know my gifts and share them with the world boldly for Christ.  The devil has no rights to me..I am a sold out, baught by the blood of Jesus Chris follower.  I will not be held back or hindered anylonger, in Jesus name...Amen!