BUM

Today I have been slack.  I have laid back & been slightly lazy.  The last day of the fast was yesterday, so I got up this morning and fixed myself a single scrambled egg with green peppers & some pepperoni.  Why a single egg: because the hubby & I have decided to be competitive and try for loosing some weight.  Well I started out the day doing good with my one egg, then found myself being lazy most of the day.  As I watched last Mondays Bachelor, which I missed Mon. night I found myself eating a bag of pepperoni with Aly and topping it off with a pear.  After taking Aly out to meet a friend, I came home sat in Michaels chair and found myself watching the food network while eating  frozen grapes, tortia chips & salsa till I couldn't hold anymore.  Michael had to work late so Eli & I watched some Disney & House Hunters.  Then when Michael got here, I found myself eating yet again, except this time it was icecream with bannanas & strawberries.  Over all I feel as though my day was a complete waste until just now as I sat down to do some of my Bible study.  It made me realize how unfocused I have been today.  God gave me one simple word, FOCUS and today on my 1st day off  of the fast I have slipped, I have caught myself in some negative thoughts about the situation.  Knowing it, recognizing it & not accepting it is a begining.  All I can say is tomorrow I plan on doing better. 

Psalm 26:2  Examine me O Lord, and try me; Test my mind & my heart.

Psalm 66:10  For you have tried us, O God;  You have refined us as silver is refined.

1 Peter 1:6-7  In this you greatly rejoice, even though now for alittle while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials, so that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which is perishable, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.

Lord, I pray for the strength to stay focused on what you have ask of me.  I desire to be obedient, not slothful or lazy, but quick to listen to your voice.  Help me to become all I can for you.  I believe I recieve through the blood of Jesus.   Thank you for all your blessings.  Amen