Where I found ME...

  I remember in High School not really feeling like I fit in with any certain crowd.  I was kind of a drifter.  I once had a girlfriend ask me which group I belonged to...she had questioned why I dressed different ways and hung with different crowds.  At the time I didn't really understand why myself, I just didn't feel compelled to be labeled as anything or belong to any certain click.  I tried my best to be true to me, yet I wasn't sure who I was.  This feeling followed me for many years.  Until recently the Lord has shown me who I am in Him and through His word I have discovered myself.  He is showing me that He died for my freedom...freedom from my past hurts, wrongs-mistakes, addictions, bondages, curses, thefts and all the firey darts our enemy, the devil has or will try against me.  He comes as a thief in the night, to try to kill, steal & destroy us in any way he can.  He is sneaky, looking for even the tiniest crevas to enter in and take us down(which for me has mostly been in my mind, it seems to be the easiest target).   He decieves us and we slowly let down our guard and values start deminishing once decieved.  We will do anything to FEEL  happy or forget just for a little while.  In reality thier is one true answer to all our past, current & future regrets/problems...his name is Jesus, he died for us to be free.  We need nothing but Him.  We need to make the Lord the center of our lives.  Christianity isn't about going to church on Sunday.  It is about making Christ the very center of our daily life.  He wants a personal realtaionship with his children, as we do our own children.  He wants us to speak to him about everything and include him in our lives every single day.  He is not someone to just run to in storms, but someone who can meet ANY and ALL needs we have and greatly exceed our expectations far better than any person possibly could.   God is our source for ALL we need.  I have recently learned to quit depending on anyone other than the Lord for anything  missing from my life...love, joy, happiness, confidence, importance...you name the void and the Lord can fill it greater than anyone or thing you have ever desired.  What ever we need all we have to do is ask and he will fill us to overflow capacity.  We must remember we are never alone, when we ask Jesus into our lives we are welcoming him into ourselves.  We are his temple and we find ourselves in and through him.  We must seek the Lord with all our hearts and ask him to be our center.  I don't want to ever go anywhere without my savior or leave him out of any part of the life he has given me.  I have a blessed life, not perfect but blessed...I don't want to spend all my time concentrating on my pain and miss out on blessing someone else for lack of vision.  I want to be open with the Lord and allow him to grow me in my pain so I can help another in pain.  I want to experience all he has for me and share his love with others.


1 John 4:16 And we have known and believed the love that God has in us. God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him.

Exod 34:14 For you shall worship no other god. For Jehovah, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God;

Luke 10: 27 And answering, he said, You shall love

Matthew 6:33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added to you.

Luke 11: 9 And I say to you, Ask and it shall be given you. Seek and you shall find. Knock and it shall be opened to you.

Psa. 26:2 Examine me, O Jehovah, and prove me; purify my heart and my mind.

1 John 3:7 Little children, let no one deceive you. He who does righteousness is righteous, even as that One is righteous

1 John 4:16 And we have known and believed the love that God has in us. God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him


Hosea 4:6 My people are destroyed for lack of knowledgelack le


John 16:13 Howbeit when he, the Spirit of truth, is come, he will guide you into all truth: for he shall not speak of himself; but whatsoever he shall hear, that shall he speak: and he will shew you things to come. 

Eph. 4:23 And be renewed in the spirit of your mind;

John 1:1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

John 16:13 Howbeit when he, the Spirit of truth, is come, he will guide you into all truth: for he shall not speak of himself; but whatsoever he shall hear, that shall he speak: and he will shew you things to come. 

John 14:26 But the Comforter, which is the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you. 

Matthew 4:4  But he answered and said, It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.    Psa 4:3 But know that the LORD hath set apartt him that is godly for himself: the LORD will hear when I call unto him. the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your strength, and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself.